i was the one who wasnt being me and i knew it all along. even when i didnt deserve it she was there. she always will be no matter what. im so happy we had that talk because i dont think i could do this without her. yesterday january 13 was the beggining of a great new year filled with happiness, stress free, HEALTH, optimism, friends, family, and all around good things to come. i wanted skinny to make me happy, im skinny but guess who didnt become happy but became painstakingly miserable…. bc i wanted skinny i avoided plans now look where that got me. my bestfriend saved me. you truly mean the world to me and ik i wont give u my tumblr to see this no matter how much ya beg me but i love you more than words can describe and i dont think u understand how much i mean it and how serious i am when i say u seriously saved my life. for the first time in 7 months i was happy. i felt like..well me. the me i lost. the happy go lucky nice girl i used to be. not the paranoid over competeitive gym/food crazy flip on a dime, depressed, misserable girl i became. so im washing the bad aways and officialy marking jan 13th as the new year. so goodbye to the last 6-7 months of misery, ill rememer it and make sure it never occurs to anyone else and hold on to the lesssons and mantain my health but not continue with my old ways. so once again sam, thankyou for being there for me through thick and thin when i didnt deserve u at all u were truly my savior so thanks for everything u truly mean the world to me.